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It's part of life, no one stays the same and interests and locations change. At first, you don't notice it. You don't see her as often. He doesn't call anymore. People grow up and meet other people, make new friends and move away. It's gradual. Then one day you see something that reminds you of a conversation you had had before, and so you go to text them, only to realize you haven't spoken in months. Some friendships are more resilient. You talk after months and nothing has changed, your lives may have, but not the way you interact. Not the important things. But others, you slip away from each other, and for some reason, you can't go back to how it was before. Too many differences now. Maybe what had felt like so much stuff you had in common really wasn't all that much. One of you has moved on, and the other is still there expecting new versions of old conversations. Right there, is where it hits you. You no longer have a close friend. Just someone you used to be close with. It hurts a little, but you have other people and it's not that much of a loss. Only when you look back do you see how many great friendships had slipped to the side and blown away. The worst part of it all is when you realize you have made so many changes and forgotten so many friends in too short of a time to make up for the loss. That's when you feel alone. You count how many people you had back then, and how many you have now and it doesn't compare. And then you're typing this up, wondering why making friends seems so much harder than it was before.

I moved thinking I was opening new doors for myself, getting an opportunity to start over in a new place where I could re-invent who I wanted to be. I only wonder if I knew how alone I would feel before I left the comfort of my home town, if I would have still done it.

Self pity post over.
28 November 2011 @ 09:41 am
Comment to this post, and I will list five things I associate with you. They might make sense or they might be totally random. Then post that list, with your commentary, to your LJ (or just add a reply back to me). Other people (including me) can get lists from you, and the meme merrily perpetuates itself.

From eiirene

GK, Stark, elephants, Brad/Nate, Polish Collapse )
Current Mood: artisticartistic
26 March 2011 @ 01:54 am
Cast your life as a movie meme-

Aint nobody that can sing like me, aint nobody that can sing like me.Collapse )
Current Mood: calmcalm
05 January 2011 @ 10:48 pm
I have found this cool video in my internet perusing.

When I saw this I was totally in awe. It's just so cool that he does that with salt. ASkars looks hot even with a high sodium content.

I am determined to be the next great salt artist, so I'm just giving you guys a heads up.

This is kind of a messy way to get my creativity out.
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Current Location: the bed
Current Music: GHOST HUNTERS
06 December 2010 @ 06:42 pm
Tumblr withdrawal D:

Song Meme stolen from emerald_skies

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Current Location: home
Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Current Music: That Summer - Garth Brooks
22 October 2010 @ 09:42 pm
For l_s_d_me after she wrote me THIS.

Not named, not betad, just Ray/Nate public lovin' for her!

Smut.Collapse )
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Pure Morning - Placebo
21 October 2010 @ 12:32 pm
To whomever is writing my prompt,

Thank you very much for the effort! Underneath is a list of things I love in Fic or GK fandom in general.

- I love angst fic. Breakups, arguments, whatever. I like when they're left with open endings that leave me wondering. I also like if they are resolved and all is well in the end.

- Happy fic is also loved. Fluff is nice.

- I love smut fic. I'm not even gonna lie.

- I love Nate. Nate is my favorite everything. In short, Nate is love. The End.

- I love crazy, ranting Ray.

- Walt and Brad are both amazing necessary things.

- TROMBLEY! I LOVE HIM! He is always awkward and interesting.

- I love when other characters speculate on the relationship of the main pairing, whether it be someone's mother being pushy about it or other characters having colorful conversations with or without a member of the pairing present.

- For Crossovers, I love Band of Brothers, if you can somehow get some Winters/Nixon in with the GK that would be glorious.

Other shows I watch if you would rather write them:

*Queer As Folk


- You don't have to write any crossover at all, I won't mind.

- I don't really like SciFi things.

- Lastly, be creative, I like it all, different and inventive is encouraged! I love when fics are done in interesting layouts and POVs and story lines.

- Tori
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Blood Bank - Bon Iver
Ok I had a weird dream. It involved Stark Sands, being down in like some jungle or something do like aid work and making a documentary, and I was the producer so I tagged along while he went around saving lives and making friends with the natives. This one kid got attached to him and didn't want us to leave. So, Stark could totally speak their language so to understand what they were saying I had to wear these special translating headphones and the kid was basically begging Stark to stay and I guess they gave Stark the name "Ko" (Somehow I just know it was spelled like that.) But In the end Stark and the rest of us had to leave and the little kid was crying, which made me cry, which made Stark give me a hug.

The End. It was such a rad dream.

And now for a Meme:

Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Name 10 songs you love starting with that letter.Collapse )
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: Happiness - Lee Grant Buffalo

Thank you Dr. Horrible for voicing my thoughts.

I went to school the other day to get my schedule and was all "Pshhhh I don't need these classes." To my counselor and she just raised an eyebrow and crushed my dreams of getting out of Greenhouse and Hydroponics (THIS WILL BE THE SECOND YEAR IN A ROW I'VE HAD THIS BS.)

She was clearly sippin' that Hater-aid.

Saved up like 400 dollars over the past three months to go shopping so I headed up to the Super Mall, which is so cool I cannot explain. But, when I got there and was ready to get my fashion on I could find NOTHING I had a desire to buy. I left after like four hours with one super cute belt and splurged the rest of my money on this Coach bag, so I guess the trip was worth it.

Lots of things to do tomorrow. Summer went by too fast.
Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: Damien Rice- Nine Crimes (Demo)
31 August 2010 @ 12:18 am
Meme for me.

Pick a band/artist, and answer the questions using titles from their songs:Collapse )
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Snow Patrol - Make This Go On Forever